Ever since I started this journey to really heal my inner child, with an increased focus the last decade, I've come to experience some marvellous things. Things like bubbly laughter that sprouts from within like elation, and freedom in dancing, letting my spirit soar. At least for a short while.
Another thing, that I also am experiencing now and then, is the actual presence of my inner child, when she gets scared. I used to have a problem with swallowing, when I was about 10 years old. I even had problem taking a large sip of water. Now, since about a year, it has reoccurred! The question is, when did it leave me? Gradually as I grew up, I think. Or did I do something that was really right and not now? Is it because of my dental issues? The way I eat and what? I'm guessing it's how my inner child is trying to show a trauma and how it affected me, such as the near drowning experience that happened to me when I was 5 years old. I'm talking about physical sensations, and an inner sense of presence of her. As if she was indeed walking next to me, holding my hand, invisibly. And even standing on top of my feet, dancing with me, like when I was little and did with others. Completely enchanting!
I believe that this is the spiritual lesson of the sacred spiral. We go in circles and then elevate to the next level, if we are lucky and do our own work.
And now, my inner child gets to become integrated into my adult self, I hope!
How does it feel for you?