Living in no man's land

I don't feel Swedish. And I don't feel American, but had began my path to become one. So where am I at then, and isn't this why I feel stuck?

There are so many differences in culture between the United States and Sweden. Not only in the outspoken ways, but in the unspoken; what is implied. And I don't know how to reconcile this.

It's a matter of how to speak, both about what, when and where, but especially how.

It's a matter of how to date. Not only what I say or do, but what the guy does and how.

It's even a matter of how we have sex differently in the US and in Sweden.

It's a matter of religion. How to integrate faith in daily life, without being weirdly looked upon.

It's a matter of politics. How to take authority and get problems solved. How to lead.

And most of all, it's a matter of justice. How things are handled when one has been offended.

How do I remain in integrity with my own best preferred ways, when the society I live in, isn't? I don't want to resume "just being Swedish" because then I would have to thread backwards, to some ways of being that disempowers me. But how do I move back to the United States, when I don't have an income? It's no wonder I long to be saved.