Hannah Telluselle 
~ create beauty between people ~

Would I have lost my home in the south of Sweden if I hadn't been denied sick-pay and my social worker hadn't missed paying my rent on time, twice? Would I have had to shoplift food and medicine off and on between 2008-11, if I had received my social security? Would I have been deported from the United States if the university would have transferred my credits on time, allowed me to work and/or signed me on to Optional practical training? Would I have had to move around to va

None of my old girlfriends in Sweden have bothered to contact me since I came back. I tried a couple of times but nobody returned my calls and in two cases my communication was cut off weirdly and blocked in the middle of us catching up on Messenger and on WhatsApp some years ago. I don't know what their game is, or if it's my stalker's doing, but I've come to realize that I most often tend to socialize with others through a certain context, such as getting to know someone th

It's said that we often attract partners that in some way resemble our parents, or the way we related to them. However when we know about this, we can of course more consciously try to heal and change this pattern to free ourselves up for someone that instead resonates with our authentic self, preferably the way we were before we became traumatized growing up. At least, it can be our ambition. Interesting enough, I've noticed that it seems that much of the conflicts I have wi

I'm not going to lie. It's been a rough couple of years in Sweden, where most of my energy has gone to heal various health issues and fight against bureaucracy to be able to sleep and eat in my own rented apartment. This constant struggle for survival has left little to no energy towards being able to open up to new relationships, of any kind. But last month, I felt myself curiously pulled towards a new person, feeling our energies intertwine from a distance. And lighting me

I've been too skinny my entire life and even been bullied because of it sometimes growing up. Between the age of 19 and 49, I weighed 52-55 kilos constantly no matter what I ate. Until I turned 50. Then I suddenly started gaining some weight in Portugal, but curbed that directly by walking longer distances again and doing more situps. However, since the Swedish government extradited me and locked me up for 2 years and 5 months based on lies, together with having my teeth brid

For many years, I've been able to tell what is coming my way, whether a decision from authorities threatening my safety and making me nauseous, when my family sends me emails and I become physically warm, or when a hot guy sends me one, I can tell by the flutter and the arousal happening instantly at the same time the email was sent, without me being online until after. I've experienced this a couple of times in my life, taking more note of it about fifteen years ago. The que

Have you ever noticed that you sometimes feel a longing for the past, and to recount what happened and how? Sometimes, it's like this for...

I haven't read any self-help or personal development books for many years. Now and then I pick one up anyway, but only to notice the same...

Sitting in my rental apartment in Stockholm, Sweden, breaking in my new Macbook Air and iPhone. Haven't been able to upgrade my equipment...

Have you ever felt uncomfortable around certain people, but totally at ease with others? This feeling arises when we try to fit in and...

I've decided to start speaking publicly, about what I've learned about my grandmother's journey; how she became a refugee in Sweden...

What is appropriate to wear and where? When can we break against the dress code, or can we ever, if we're to be accepted and respected...

The clouds hang grey and heavy over Stockholm today, as to set the tone of the same somber sadness I always feel this date in November:...

I suddenly remembered today, that I used to sleep in a bunk bed for a couple of years, growing up. I thought it was fun to sleep on top,...

Every time on my walk to the forest, I pass by a little cottage, where there is an apple tree bearing lots of big, red, shiny apples. And...

A couple of nights ago, I had a vivid dream. I went to San Francisco and met an old Swedish acquaintance there. He gave me the keys to...

This past Wednesday, I attended a Bible study MeetUp on Zoom, that I regularly do. This time, we watched a sermon from a pastor in...

Today marks June 21st, which means it's the longest day of the year with the most amount of daylight hours in Sweden. It was also this...

I've come to the conclusion that there are three reasons for why I'm unemployed in Sweden, where I'm from, and currently live in. My...

After not having been able to speak properly for years, due to getting dental implants first, it's like a new practice for me. But not...