Treading backwards to move forward

Have you ever noticed that you sometimes feel a longing for the past, and to recount what happened and how? Sometimes, it's like this for me. That I feel a little stuck in some way or a need to prepare myself. Then I take a look backwards to see if I've missed something that I needed to learn or develop, or that I can improve. And then I do!

Many times, people of our past seem to not respond but those who don't make it clear for me to cut off my emotional ties to too. So often, I've been the one initiated contact, or the one always calling and suggesting to meet, which by all means have been fun, but yet tiring to be the one pulling the wagon all the time. I thrive on equal partnerships, when it comes to investing time, energy and will. So to me, it's better to be more alone until new relationships naturally can emerge that are positive and forward bringing from where I am now. I think many remain in their friendships and relationships out of habit, or even out of fear to not rock the boat. Some can come and go and then resurface, but some are better left behind. Imagine, if I had been able to give the ones more mutually inclined my time and energy instead, how would that not have benefited both me and them?

Like my mentor once said: We're all travelling on a journey. And some people are to keep with us the whole way, while others are just to meet with at a specific milestone, or for a shorter trip among a couple.

How many of your Contacts, are your true friends? Which ones are yours, regardless of time and place, and which are bound to a specific location or time period? What do you prefer?

We all grow better with love.