I was thinking today, about which conclusion I've made about love. My life's journey, has been about defining, finding, and experiencing, various facets of love, both in Sweden and abroad. Is it the same across languages and cultures? Or are the social codes what makes up a relationship? Is it so engrained in us to be twosome, that many become without love? And why am I not married yet?
I want my relationship to rest on solid ground, starting with good health, a regular income, and an everyday foundation of routines, that can be brought into (besides having the same values, priorities and integrity). I believe, what we bring into a relationship is what it becomes about. Having had to move around, live on welfare or charity, and recuperating from both criminal offenses aimed at me and fixing my teeth, has put my love life in limbo meanwhile. I also decided in 2010, when I first returned to live in the United States, to marry someone there, to have my life there. Therefor, I either have to change those aspirations, or move back again, which is of course easier said than done, since I was deported. This is, however, still my plan and goal to.
I wouldn't mind having someone to share my window-view of the beautiful sunset with here too - now that I have one to share - as well as any traumatic experiences, that I will always carry with me, but become less affected by. As of now, moving to the US hopefully, finally, will be possible next year.
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