Don't call me a fan, please!

I feel offended when someone thinks of me as a fan, especially if someone calls me that. It might feel worse because it often is someone stalking me with a fake profile since many years, or like recently, even with a fake email, pretending to be a celebrity "thanking me for my support". What support? You think I have the money and the time to watch movies and/or TV all the time or that I even would remember the names of the actors? That I even would care to? I might enjoy someone's good looks or a story that either is fun (rare are) or moving (some are), that the characters embody and communicate in a way that mirrors me in some way. But that would be the character's doing, not the actor in his or her personal life, and whom I don't know. And being a copywriter means to be someone who writes the scripts that make others or brands famous, which is one of my professions.

To me, assuming someone to be a fan, implies that the other would be an idol, someone I would like to be as. No, not at all. I want to be me, the best version of me, that I unfortunately in Sweden this past decade and more haven't been enabled to be, but rather obstructed. Nonetheless, it's me I want to be as, not someone else. I might have admired Madonna's many styles when I was in my 20's, but that was more like inspiration. I don't think idolatry is healthy - that's fans putting their idol on a pedestal, giving away their power and projecting their own light onto someone else, instead of upholding their own right to acknowledgment. Why would I want to do that?

It would also imply that the one I'm supposedly a fan to, would be better than me as a person. As if someone with lots of followers or with a big audience would be more compassionate, mature and generous than everyone else and thereto some kind of absolute expert. Often by doing drugs, dropping out of school and never getting educated? I don't think so. Others with more fame and fortune than I, might be better at what they are doing such as singing, acting, dancing, painting, writing, speaking or other performing but not always. I've always been against competition and want to be liked for who I am and what I do and how I perform, regardless of how well others do.

Someone's fame doesn't make them more worthy of love and money.